Friday, December 08, 2006
Sorry about the last post. Had to relieve some stress on games. well, my life aren't exactly going very well now i guess. Most of the things are going my way, but it's not the way i had imagined. Now when i think back, i think it's stupid. Well, i guess there're ups and downs in life, and i hope that this will just not last. Here's how life has been.
Just finished a day camp for the NYAA thingy, and we're about to wrap up our residential project. That's the end of one of the section of the NYAA. time to move on to another. can't really say the camp was a success. we just weren't prepared enough, and we thought that it might be just easy, when it's not in reality. time constraints, manpower constraints, lousy people management skills mostly caused the camp to fail. I guess it might be okay okay towards the end, but the start was like a total flop. at least we ended on a high right.
Found out something about my leadership style, that i'm quite lousy at it. i'm quite okay at organizing stuff, as in the paperwork and stuff. The type that oversees stuff. But, when leading a team, it's different. i don't have the ability to motivate people, to push people further. i just can't seem to do it. i can't get people involved or listen to me nicely. well, that's something that i learnt from the camp. =.
Right now, i just called like 30 people to ask for their shirt sizes. Council stuff. haven't been to the last 2 council meetings because of the camp. what to do. time to get updated and get more involved. school's starting pretty soon. and i'm still like that. sigh.
Skipped a couple of soccer training as well for the camp, and the week before i skipped as well, due to injuries. i seem to be missing from school activities since the day the term ended. i might even get lost in school. =x. guess i will most probably be back in training next week, and it's time to do more running and get the fitness back. more hard work. =.
schoolwork. i'm on conditional promotion. Haven't started studying, and the topical tests are less than a month away. how am i going to promote at this rate. haven't touch the books, and i probably forgotten everything that the teachers have taught. A levels next year as well. my life is screwed. maybe i'm more suited to poly life. i don't know. kinda lost. i hate being a student. when am i going to go out there and work? still a long way.
There's like a million things to do, and so little time. and yet, my attitude is draggy and don't want to do anything. how do i correct this? someone please help me. i'm just not the type to get things done. all i want to do is sleep, lie on the bed and do nothing. i'm even forcing myself to type now. since i'm finishing, i don't want to give up halfway. lol.
haish. there's like. no one to turn to when i'm troubled. i'm like neither here nor there. i've no clique or anything. just wander around all the time. that's what sucks. like right now, i've something to talk crap about, but no one's close enough to hear something that personal. it's not meant for typing and showing to the world. haish. just bottle everything up inside. anyways. i guess i had enough of typing. there's approximately 500 words here. may take a long time to update again. cya people.
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
Hey all!
This is the 77th post, and a post after almost a month of no posting. So, since i'm free right now, and pretty bored, so it's time to reflect on the past month and see what i've been doing. lets recap the past few days first!
Past few days~
Busy with NYAA. Right now we're doing a residential project, involving some childcare centre. Monday to Thursday i'll be there playing with the kids, as we've organized some sort of camp for them. Day one, monday was CHAOTIC. we didn't plan properly, and we weren't experienced enough to do some stuff, so they got pretty rowdy and stuff. Today's much better, and i skipped soccer training today just for it. Skipping council meeting tomorrow, and Thursday's soccer training. Yup. But the camp's fun i guess. even though it has it's stressful moments for us, it's still rather fun in the end. The kids there call me dar, and after awhile some started calling me darling. really very very very funny. they would shout darling! come kiss me. then show me their cheeks. i've nothing to say.. still 2 days to go, and i hope i'll be able to manage better.
All i recall is the past two days, cause it's really hectic and stuff, waking up at 6am, and going home at 8pm. It's a really tiring thing. so i'll blog by category!
CCA!
Soccer - I bought a new pretty boot, gold in color, with white decorations here and there. very pretty. Day after i bought it, match the next day against SRJC. i started, played approximately 75mins. Score. 2-0. tpjc win, dont be mistaken. i caused the opponent to own goal. =). fun fun. but after that i got injured. didn't season my boot, then i had SERIOUS blisters at the heel area. pain. couldnt walk properly for like 3 or 4 days. skipped a couple of training sessions and a match cause of it. back to training on FRIDAY. 5km run. we just got a new training kit, and it's like reddish pink i heard. and tight fit cause it's kappa. hope i'll get 17!
im enthu now and lazy to blog. cya all.
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
I'll remember you - no secrets
It has been so long since we have talked
I hope that things are still the same
hoping they will never change
cause what we had can't be replaced
don't let our memories fade away
keep me in your heart for always
You made me believe
that I can do almost anything
stood right by me
through the tears through everything
I'll remember you,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you,
no matter what you're goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you
I promise you I won't forget the times we shared, the tears we cried
You'll always be the sun in my sky
It may be fate that brings us back to meet again someday
Even though we go seprate ways
You made me believe
that I can do almost anything
You stood right by me
through the tears through everything
I'll remember yooooou,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for yooooou,
no matter what your goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you
If the day should come when you need someone
(you know that i'll follow)
I will be there
Don't ever let there
be a doubt in your mind
'cause I'll remember you, you
I'll remember you,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you,
no matter what your goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you
Forever baby, I'll remember you
back with another post after not updating for five days. been doing lots of crap the past few days. schoolwork and stuff.
project work is driving everyone crazy. dry run on thursday, fri sat sun holiday, monday 2nd dry run, and today, 3rd dry run. tomorrow meeting up to finish up the slides, dry run on monday again with the teachers. we're doing project work like crazy. i sort of screwed up today's dry run, wasn't in the mood, cause some idiots were seriously late, and delayed the whole thing. i fell asleep in the lecture theatre while waiting for them, and thus i had no mood to do. no mood to do, plus i was scriptless and have only 2 slides, i ended up screwing up. but it's okay i think. i just need to slow down my pace, other than that, i'm okay i guess.
there's still orientation to plan and do for council work, and i'm pretty unsure of what we're doing right now. i just found the council website, and everything i visit, it's under construction. except the know your councillors page, where they just paste the friendster links to some councillors there. neverminds. hope the website will be fixed soon. there haven't been council meetings for a while already, and the feeling is weird. soccer trainings too. i only attended one so far, since it always clashes with the council meetings. hope the holidays won't be so packed with the CCAs, i need to study.
the holidays have started, but i still feel like it's schooling. everyday we have to wakeup so early. so far my holidays have been. out, cs, pw, ps2, slp, sms. got to start doing other stuff soon. oyea, my LCD moniter spoilt! i was out one day, and i came home, i couldn't get an image on it. the horror. i can't use the com for like 8 hours+ that day, till i got really bored and took out my clt moniter. couldn't put it on the desk cause it's really big, and there won't be space for the keyboard. so nowadays i'm playing the com on the floor, with a gigantic 45x40cm mousepad, and i lie on the flood playing it. backaches and neckpains. now i realize the importance of the tables.
there's this thingy i found, edible, looks like potato chips, but aren't potato chips. my aunt bought it. seems like some kind of japanese thing. i don't really like it, but i still eat it. then, it made me think of something somewhat complicated. cause the thing, it's like. it smells VERY nice to eat, and when u first place it in your mouth, the feeling rocks, the taste rocks. then u bite, the taste fades, and finally, when you're finishing, the taste sucks, it's bitter. it's somewhat like bgrs, it's nice if you don't touch or try it, but it's totally different when you're involved in one. some people just aren't meant to be. as what rock( it is someone, it's just a nick ) said, nothing is perfect.
well, i'm eating right now. macaroni or something. it's got an egg in it too, and some macaroni got stuck or is in the egg. forced to eat cause someone won't talk to me if i won't eat lunch. feeling pretty lazy again, i feel like lying on the bed for a couple of hours doing nothing, but i know i can't do it. i'll most probably fall asleep over and over again. but anyway, i feel like doing other things now. was bored- that's why i blogged. cya.
Friday, October 27, 2006
didn't finish updating the blog yesterday, my mom and dad taking turns to keep irritating me by walking into the room, and finally my no. 1 kpo friend came my house, so i decided to just publish and close it. can't rememeber what i wanted to type anyway. =S.
Thursday, October 26, 2006
I've finally decided to update the blog with yet another long post, after leaving it dormant for almost eight days. been pretty lazy the past few days, results, soccer training resuming, council work. but i guess i'm coping pretty well with it.
there's still much work to do with council, the principal is leaving next year, and two of the council teachers are also leaving, one of them, mr reynolds, is also the head of the English department, and he's going to be leaving for MOE. the other, mr larry lim, is moving on to vjc to teach i guess. We had planned a way to surprise them in a day's time, and they were caught speechless. That's done for now, now it's orientation. have to go to school tomorrow to pick out OGLs with some people. boring, but quite meaningful i think. i think we're cutting approximately 20% of the people who applied. moving on....
in tpjc, i realized, it's very very easy to get conditional promotion or direct promotion. all you need is a H2 subpass, or three H1 passes, and there you go, conditional promotion. far from the standard of 2H2 and 1H1. and what they really see is ATTITUDE i think. i've got 3H1, a H2 and a H2 subpass, and i've got conditional promotion. then ys, 3H1, a H2 pass, and he is PROMOTED. neverminds, at least almost everyone promotes in the end. =). There's a topical test next year, and we've got to show PROGRESS in the test. study during holidays to catchup! A level's in a year time. =S. stress.
it's the end of the schooling year already! time really passes fast. that's the end of half of college life, the supposed busy and hectic time of my life. well, i'm just looking forward to the end of education, which i supposed i'm going to end with a degree. it's much closer now, considering how long i've studied. 2 years in kindergarden, 6 years in primary school, 4 years in secondary school, and now i'm doing 2 years in college, and theres still 4 years+ more for university i think. so, i've completed 13/18 of the education system already. but before that, there's NS to attend.
i think that college life is pretty interesting, i don't know much about poly's, but i suppose that the college route would be better. most of the poly people have lots of holidays, and my friend actually calculated his holidays, it's a year worth of holiday in the three years he is taking the course. so it's around the same, except he gets more holidays.
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
heya! long time since i last blogged, so i guess this is going to be a rather long post. let's start off the post randomly!
just finished soccer training today. quite slack, i guess it's cause the malays are still fasting. we were supposed to do 2.4km run, and all i had was slippers and boots. how to run? in the end, we all lied and said we ran already, cause he wasn't around for an hour plus. blah. i don't want to talk about training.
today's also the final dateline for the Written Report[WR]. it weighs 40% of our pw grade, makes it rather important. i guess my group's wr is alright, except for some minor changes. i suppose we can get like 30 out of the 40 marks? hope. xD. now theres insights and reflections to be done, first draft by friday. guess i'm going to do tomorrow. then settle it. but yea. oral presentation is also approaching. but i guess it's going to be okay.
oyea! the prinicipal is going to step down at the end of the year, i think she said it's 15th december or something. and she cried today after seeing what the teachers and the council did for her. she was attending the JC2 graduation stuff, when she came out of the auditorium, she was surprised by the students outside, we lined up people all the way from the auditorium to the hall, where she will see a short concert, before we present her with tokens of appreciation. we gave her cards and stuff all the way from the audi to the hall, and i daresay it's quite a success. she was crying a little when it ended.
tomorrow's the promotional board meeting, where they decide our fate. i'm pretty scared. i hope the principal is happy and lets us promote! please don't let me retain, i promise i'll work hard! =x.
tomorrow is a holiday for the school cause of the meeting. so, i'm having lan training in the morning, and my whole class going lan, but they are going katong cause it's nearer. retarded. i'm going irc with fn5, and pangseh them. =x. then after that i'll most probably be going to the childcare centre to see the kids. i haven't been there for like, a month already? time to catchup with them.
back to now. training ended, and on the way home, i tripped over my own legs a couple of times, stepped into a ditch a couple of times, and it's a miracle that i didn't sprain or break anything. =p. omg. tomorrow i got to pay handphone bills. sianz. ah. i want to watch tv soon.
cya!
Saturday, October 14, 2006
Heya! =\. The first weekend after getting the promos results. don't really have the mood to do anything, and alot of people is missing today. guess everyone's out celebrating the end of promos, and the results they got. except for me that is. i'm here in front of the com the whole day, since the time i woke up.
got my fragnetics server yesterday, and it was damn LAGLESS! celebrations, my whole team went crazy when i told them to connect to the server. but i managed to crash it this afternoon, cause i was so ethu about it, and i somehow managed to overload it. =x. fixed it using the control panel anyway.
today, yet another boring day. nothing to post about what i did, so i decided to post feelings today. please do not read the bottom if you don't want to, but i bet you people will still read, cause the curiosity is killing you. WAIT! before that, someone help me think of what to put as display pic for msn.
i feel like doing somthing, but i can't seem to know what it is. it's a damn stupid feeling you know. that something is missing from my life. i just can't seem to find out what is it. therefore life sucks, and i'll only forget about it when i'm in match, cause i'll be too preoccupied with the ongoing chaos. other than that. i don't know. well. i guess i'm lost. someone show me the way please?
i feel like watching tv.